Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Joy in disappointment

"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart and lean not on your own understanding..."

"Whom have I in heaven but You? And besides You, I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Ps 73:25-26

You get a small taste of something so sweet and your expectation to taste again rises. You begin to plan your day around the next bite. You cannot think of anything else. One day passes, then two, then three. Still no new taste. It begins to be the only sweetness of your life. You forget to taste and see that the Lord is good, but so was the first bite. But the comfort comes in the second part of the verse. "How blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him!" (Ps 34:8). I cannot take refuge in the expectation of another bite. Of the sweetness of the bite itself. Things of the world are sweet but they will end. I have an eternal comfort and shelter. As when I dwell in this shelter is when I taste and see the "goodness" of the world to the extreme. Every good and perfect gift comes from above. When my taste buds are set by the Word of God, I begin to enjoy the things surrounding me because I have first tasted and enjoyed the eternal goodness of Christ. Like a fine wine brings out the flavors of food to the fullest.

Disappointment is inevitable. My eyes get set on the things of the world. I settle for a store-bought cookie when God is waiting to indulge me a four course meal. My disappointment lies in wanting to dictate my diet and expecting to eat one thing. The Lord knows to the fullest what my diet needs to be for me to be healthy, satisfied, and the most enJOYable. My God is good to me, I have tasted and seen.

I will CHOOSE to taste the goodness of the Lord today..... "Choose" by Christy Nockels

Let me be in love with what You love
Let me be most satisfied in You
Forsaking what this world has offered me
I choose to be in love with You
I will choose to be in love with You

Let me know the peace that's mine in You
Let me know the joy my heart can sing
For I have nothing Lord apart from You
I choose to call on Christ in me
I will choose to call on Christ in me

For in the fullness of who You are
I can rest in this place
And giving over this, my journey Lord
I see nothing but Your face

Let me know that You have loved me first
Let me know the weight of my response
For You have long pursued my wandering heart
I choose to glory in Your cross
I will choose to glory in Your cross

And I bow down...
Humbly, I bow down...
Humbly, I bow down...
I bow down...

I bow down, I bow down
my beloved- here I am
I bow down, I bow down to You...